Monday, March 30, 2009

Diary of an Ex-Fiancée.

This ex-boyfriend/break up business freaking sucks. (why bother saying ex-fiancée since he didn't even really want to be engaged) It's kind of weird that to me, he was the boy i was planning on spending the rest of my life with. To him, i was his starter girlfriend.


I have learned a lot of information about myself and relationships in general though, which i suppose will help me in the present and future. And i have had a tremendous support system. Family, family friends, my S. Florida, Orlando and Internet friends...I'm a really lucky gal in that department.

Everyday gets a little easier, sometimes i feel like I'm going in reverse. Sometimes i feel like caving and talking to him, but most of the time I'm doing alright. I just hope it gets better soon. I need to get on with my life, without feeling hindered by my emotions.


Miss Wanderlust said...

I was ALWAYS the starter girlfriend so I totally know how you feel. The great thing is that there is someone out there who is 1000 times better than what you thought you had. You will totally look back on this as a blessing. I PROMISE!!!
Easier said than done but it is true!

Lisa said...

oh girl, that sucks. :( i hope everyday continues to get better for you. i hope you find someone someday who can't wait to sweep you off your feet and put a ring n that finger. don't lose hope!

i followed you :) i'm glad you had a link to your blog on your website!