Interesting...... na-doodle

So...my friend Tara sent this to me this morning and oddly enough, it's pretty accurate which COMPLETELY surprises me. 

I know it's kind of long, so i don't blame you if you didn't want to read it all. Ha. But i wanted to share anyways!
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"jen,

You love a good time. You are generally happy, friendly, and outgoing. You have a gift for gab. You are very witty, creative, and playful. You inspire and entertain people. You are considered by many a great companion.

You have a gift for self expression and are drawn to the verbal arts -- writing, acting, singing, and poetry. You may have a great talent in one of these areas. If your creativity is blocked or suppressed, you tend to daydream and fantasize. Your imagination needs a constructive outlet; otherwise, it may run away with you.

If you fail to deal honestly with your inner nature, you may succumb to compulsive talking. Such behavior may be merely a way of siphoning off emotional energy that is building beneath your surface. Your deeply felt emotional life cannot be avoided or suppressed. But you possess the talent to channel these feelings into highly creative and artistic form. Art and self-expression are your outlets.

You need discipline to make full use of your abilities. Too often, you may scatter your energies in many directions, beginning projects that are never finished and never really succeeding in anything.

You success depends on your ability to commit to your work and to see it through to completion. You have so much creativity and inspiring upward energy that you are in desperate need of an anchor. Hard work and discipline serve this purpose and bring out the best in you.

Because you are gifted with such a sparkling personality, you are tempted to stay on the surface and play with life.

You have the potential to live a very full and successful life thanks to your talent for artistic self expression. The key to your success is a balance between the creative forces and self-disclose."

Happy SUNday lovely folks!
Jenipher 

Life's Complications

backkkkkk and forth....back and forrrrrrrrrth...

What do you do when things 'just. aren't. working.' 

When life's complications are getting in the way of making progress in other areas right now?

I know that these complications will give me great growth in the future, but right now, it's just hindering everything else in my life; my business; my health.

I want so badly to own my own business successfully. 

And there are SO many opportunities for me to make little growths right now.

Maybe it's time for me to realize it's NOT going to happen right now. 

That there is NO WAY i can supplement my life with my business.

Maybe i need to just let the idea go.

Maybe i just need to let it go for now.

Exsaustingly Yours,

Jenipher

I know i haven't posted in a while.
Life has been drowning me for a while.
I have been sick.
Physically and Emotionally.
Life is about ebb and flow.
And i am trying to sail between the two of those.
While still having faith it will. get. better. soon.

I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It may even have a cupcake at the end of it.
I have faith and hope, and trust that I will feel better soon.
Everyday helps.
Even when it doesn't.

I hope you are all well.
Are having a lovely holiday season.
Stay healthy!
Stay optimistic!
And be patient.
Life is unfolding as we speak.

It is and will be glorious!

life lessons for today.

These are mine.
What are yours?

much love,
Jenipher

My being.

Every being of my body wants to be okay.
To be healthy.
But knows i'm not.

Every being of my soul wants to body and mind to know it's okay.
It's okay i don't have it figured out.
It's okay that it's taking longer then expected.
Longer then expected to heal.
To be healthy.

Every being of my mind wishes it could just concentrate.
Keep on trucking.
Be motivated 'like before.'

But every being of my heart knows that i have to give it time.
Need to let my body heal inside out.
That i am very blessed to have friends, support, and doctors to help me.

The confidence will come as the healing continues.
The healing will continue as i give myself time.
Time to breathe.
Time to grow.
Time to turn into the person I'm supposed to be.

The person i've wanted to be all along.

Letting Go.

Hello friends!

Long time no visit...

I've been taking time to grow, create, heal, and in doing that [in real life] i have been taking a blog-cation.

It's been amazing, and reviving. I've reconnected with people. I've tried new foods. I've...slept. I promise to start posting again soon.

I hope you are living a glorious life!
Smiles to you!!

Jenipher

Faithful Future-doodle

This is my [forever] mantra. Life is an exciting, scary, exhilarating place, and i am trying to learn to embrace the unknown more often then i have in the past. It's quite difficult, but I'm doing the best i can!

[which is the important part] :p

Hope you're having a wonderful weekend!
smiles,
Jenipher

Thankful Tuesday

1. BOGO Rainer Cherries!

2. seeing my friend Melody tonight! – Walmart “friend date”!

3. i love HULU.

4. Vanilla Bean Greek yogurt. – tastes like cheese cake!

5. Feeling better then yesterday. [physically] Thank God!

6. That the cream for my nerve damage on my toe seems to be working.

7. nice post office lady.

8. my cozy home.

9. “Blue Like Jazz” – don miller is a HOOT!

10. Good hair day.

What are YOU thankful for?

Love and Hope to all of you!

Jenipher

PS: Want to see more lists of being thankful? Good List Daily is stellar!

Nightly Contemplations... are you an enemy?

Do you ever feel like two different people?

I do.

In general, i do feel our society dwells on the negative much more then the positive and it breaks my heart. I'm no different then anyone else.

In fact, if anything... i'm probably worse.

I'm very positive and optimistic for everyone else [most of the time]. But i'm so negative and hateful to myself, that there are days i honestly don’t even know how i get by.

It’s a constant battle, these two people inside me. One; the person i KNOW i really am, the person i want to be. The other; well, the other is the biggest “Debbie Downer” I can ever fathom. I am constantly and continually bewildered by how screwed up i am. And how my perception of myself is so skewed.

it's quite frustrating .... and more then that. it’s VERY VERY draining.

Do you ever feel this way about yourself? Are YOU, your own worst enemy at times?



My mom gave me a book to read while i was down visiting. It's helping her, which is a glorious thing. I'm reading it and find it INCREDIBLELY truthful and humorous. Maybe you will like it too. :)


Life is TOO beautiful. TOO precious. And WAY TO MUCH of a gift to consistently let it us down!! We all have to fight these negative demons away!!! It’s NOT easy, and infact VERY hard at times, but we WILL concur this.
TOGETHER.

I have faith in all of us!
I hope you do too.

Love, Smiles, Thanks, and Cookies to YOU beautiful lady!! [or gentleman!] ;)
Jenipher


PS:

I'm thankful, are YOU?

1. Going to South Florida tomorrow.

2. Hulu.com

3. “Less then Perfect” – tv series

4. being [[physically]] healthy.

5. text messeges.

6. M&M’s. big time!!!

7. forgiveness.

8. Seeing Amanda and Kelsey this weekend!!

9. My counselor…again..!

10. Good List Daily.

Life..among other things...

Still working through my "self worth" issues. You see, it's funny...i thought that my issues were purely complication only within myself. But this weekend, i realized that they linger in my business as well.

While having a trunk show at one of my favorite galleries, i realized that i ended up losing money because i undercharged for a hand full of items. Which is quite silly. I wrote down all the prices, but when people approached me, i clammed up and blurted out a different [sometimes MUCH lower] number instead.

I don't know why i do this. I know i am not the most talented person in the whole world, but i do in fact know I AM talented. I just wish i let myself know that more often.

Do any of you battle your self worth? Especially those who are artists?



Ohhh yes i do. My jewelry, YOUR ARTWORK, they aren't YOU. You created them yes, but they do not SCREAM your self worth. If someone doesn't purchase or even like your work, it IS NOT a personal attack! In fact, it has NOTHING to do with you.

You are not your art! You are NOTNOTNOTNOTNOTNOT.

::enter dramatic sigh:: ;)

You are so valuable! I hope you know it!
Smiles and blessings to all,
Jenipher :D

A weeks worth of nightly doodles...

...almost...

i have to admit it was bothering me to have both vertical and horizontal images, so i just posted all of the horizontal ones. :D

Truth.

We have a pizza place here called "Lazy Moon" and it is SPELNDID!
The pizza is literally the size of my torso. :)

Guess what this lady is doing friends??

Nothing overly exciting happening yet today. I did make AMAZING apple cinnamon french toast FOR ONE this morning. :D I shall post pictures later. I hope you're all having a BRILLIANTLY WONDERFULLY CREATIVE DAY!!

Smiles and Blessings,

Jenipher

Blogs are Scary if you have Feelings.

It's 1am.
I should be in bed....but i had the urge to blog. [[kind of]]

I've been MIA from the blog-o-sphere for a while now. Mostly because I'm dealing with a lot of things right now. For a while now actually...

...and honestly.. i didn't feel i had anything of value to say, share, bring to the blogging table.

Among many things I'm "working on" right now, I've been dealing with self worth issues for a while now. I've most recently realized that i just have to DO things, and not fear them. I should just blog, because i feel like blogging. Not ignore it in fear of saying or not saying anything gratifying to those who read it. Isn't what essentially when a blog is supposed to be??

I suppose [and I'm supposing not just for myself]] that it's somewhat intimidating to try and create a blog that shows your true colors. YET, one that INSPIRES others.

But how can i even inspire anyone if i, myself, don't feel inspiring/inspired?
I feel like I'm talking in circles. But you know what? At least circles are never ending. And perhaps if i talk enough then I'll eventually make a full one.

I hope you're life is a full circle!! One filled with happiness, joy and everlasting creativity!!

Smiles and Blessings to you my crafty friends!
Jenipher :D

One Year Ago and Daily Inspiration

These images represent my life one year ago today [plus a few days!]





*Don't make it your photographic mission to shoot like someone else. Make it your mission to find the 'u' in 'unique'.*

*All a wedding does is to create the possibilty for a marriage. Marriage is what you create after the wedding is over.*

*Really its artists please know your value and not cave in- too many do and make it worse for themselves*

*It's so utterly incredibly crazy how many things are different in a years time. How a single moment creates life altering differences.*






The these tweets are some of the things i've learned this week. Via Twitter from some pretty stellar people!!

What have you learned this week?
Where were you ONE year ago TODAY??

Let me know!!

Smiles and Blessings,

Jenipher

Be a brave brave gal.

Oh my...did i need this tonight.

I joined the "Brave Girls" e-mail list because my artsy friend Carissa, sent me one that was brilliant for my heart. These two women are absolutely incredible.

I WISH i had enough money for their retreat. It sounds spectacular. Absolutely spectacular. In the mean time, i will relish in their daily "truth" e-mails. :D

Life is full of blessings...

You just have to keep your eyes peeled to appreciate them all.

I'm so sad that most of my posts were not the up-most-happiest they could be this year. My life is so full of blessings and i really have to appreciate this more. So below i list a bunch of lovely reasons to be thankful. :)

Just this morning....

I woke up to two sales...

A consignment check...

New crafty ideas to make at work..

I took a warm shower.
I made DELICIOUS fish tacos for breakfast. (yes ma'am, for BREAKFAST!)
I finished two necklaces.

And a really good friend is coming over to hang out before work today.

And THIS silly boy is visiting me tonight!! [and all weekend!]



Life is good. Being thankful and appreciate is key. And this mantra is something I'm going to do more of today. :)

Hope you all have a glorious day and weekend!!!

Hark! A new stage!

These past few weeks have been such a blessing, and such a gratifying growing experience. I'm in THE best place I've ever been in, in my short 25 years. I have finally come to a place where i am confident and comfortable; with my true age, with my progress of my business, with myself. I finally learned that i don't need a man or a successful (ie: money making) business to make me happy. I deserve to be happy without those things. I finally learned that i do enjoy making jewelry, and although i hope to grow with my skills, I'm satisfied with my Cherry Runway jewels for now. Jewelry making is finally enjoyable again, and it's nice not to feel stressed about my show on Saturday.

Oh, yeah, you Orlando Folk, come to my (our) show on Saturday at Dandelion Cafe on Colonial. It's called World Fair Trade Day!

ha, now where have you seen THIS picture before?

I've been roller-blading every day for the last few weeks (with a couple exceptions when i staying over at peoples houses) which is a feat I'm quite proud of! Especially those mornings i realllly didn't want to go skating at 7:30 in the morning. I have still been consistent and have enjoyed it so. (ok, with the exception of yesterday.. lol)

Okay..I'm through with my mushy feelings.

Opperation Become Human. :)

Okay, so obviously if you've read the past few posts of my blog then you know that i'm having a rough time right now. For the past two weeks i've just been this emotional lump. This is such a crazy process, and has been much more tramatizing them i ever imaged. I never quite realized how much i relied on Riley. I had no idea how helpless i could feel. I used to be such an indipendant person. I loved alone time, but still rejoiced time with friends and family. Where did that girl go? I lost her.



But alas, after finally getting the closure i needed, i realize that life will go on. It just has to. So...today is day one of "Opperation Become Human". (otherwise known to me as OBH) I have been running eronds all day today, bringing jewelry to shops that ive been needing to replenish all month, and going to a coffee shop just becuase i want to.

My day has actually been pretty wonderful. Here's the run down.



*Went to bed with the feeling "I can finally look in the mirror and see a girl who knows everything will be okay."

* Actually slept.

* Woke up, cleaned a bit, and ate breakfast. (mmm good breakfast, vegan corn chili)

* Went to the gallery i used to work at and talked to the fine ladies there. Dropped off "Jenipher Lyn" jewels.

* Made plans with a friend to have lunch and go to the museum tomorrow. Yay!

* Drove to the coffee shop and finally got some work done. (FINALLY!!)

* Randomly sold a harmonica to a nice gentleman who works at the coffee shop.

* Picked up a very nice consignment check from a lovely indie shop i'm in.

* R&R. Relaxed and Read magazines at B&N, just for me, nothing to do with Cherry Runway.

* My friend is coming over in ONE HOUR! to spend time with me and have dinner. Hopefully i'll make her go for a walk with me. :)

* Picked up my mail. Which has been empty for days. Today was a wonderful mail day though!

- The beautiful journals for a craft swap with the talented ladies in my online class.

- A really sweet note from two of the gals. Thank you so so much Laura and Ashley!

- A free sub coupon for Firehouse for my birthday.

- A consignment check from the gallery! Surprise surprise!

- A Bed Bath and Beyond coupon. (always fun, especially with all the gift cards i have from there)




I think that pretty much sums up my day. Today was a bright one. Tomorrow may be a hard one. I don't know really..i just know i need to lift my chin, realize it's all just going to be okay, and live my life.

I leave you with a quote from my room mate Josh...

People are going to live their life. You just have to live yours. - Josh

Sickly Apologies.

I have not felt that well the past couple days, so ive been lacking of blogs (and Etsy'n sadly). I feel better today, and actually have a TON of plans!! Way more then any usual Jen has plans. I have plans ALLLL DAY.

* I have a online chat with my class mates and teachers which is very exciting. (starts at 10am)
* I am meeting friends to start an "Art Guild" (which also, starts at 10am)
* I have a friend's suprize BBQ at 6pm.

Whew!! Long wonderfully fun day! I hope yours is equally as great!

Smiles,

JENipher :)

HOLY COW!

It has been quite a while since i blogged. Over a month!! Ridiculous! April came and went and was extremely crazy, very tiring, and quite saddening. Alas, May is bringing a few more brighter days, A LOT of processing, while strengthening relationships, and giving me a whole new way of thinking. The one thing i've learned the most...

Take everyday, live everyday and enjoy everyday.

I'm trying to live with this mantra. Although, it's quite difficult for me. My brain goes at least two miles a minute at all time. I'm trying to learn what i'm so good at telling others. "Just breath".

Have you been breathing?? I sure hope so!!